Apr 3, 2004

sing to the King...

sing to the King who is coming to reign
glory to Jesus, the Lamb that was slain
life and salvation His empire shall bring
and joy to the nations when Jesus is King

come, let us sing a song
a song declaring we belong to Jesus
and He is all we need
and lift up a heart of praise
sing now with voices raised to Jesus
sing to the King

for His returning, we watch and we pray
we will be ready the dawn of that day
and we'll join in singing with all the redeemed
'cause Satan is vanquished and Jesus is King

come, let us sing a song
a song declaring we belong to Jesus
and He is all we need
and lift up a heart of praise
sing now with voices raised to Jesus
sing to the King
pour me out...

pour me out like a drink offering
Lord, I come as a sacrifice
pour me out like a drink offering
Lord, I come to die

let there be nothing left
nothing left
let there be nothing left
nothing left
let me be filled and overflowing
with Your Holy Spirit, Lord
till there's nothing left but you

Mar 28, 2004

if they only knew what they were reaching for...

Some of us from church went down to Daytona Beach last night and handed out tracts to the spring-breakers and those attending the Audio show. Jessica came up with the design of the tracts based on something we had been given while in New York for New Year's, which Christina reminded her of a few days ago. Anyway, the tracts were really cool... they were postcard-sized and on the front just had a picture of a person running down the beach and said "I spent my spring break in Daytona Beach 2004." The back had the real message on it. It started by asking, "Do you know where you'll spend eternity?" and gave many other verses and statements/questions. What was cool about handing them out, especially at the audio show, was that people are more than willing to take something that's free. Several of the guys working the tables at the audio show even came up to us and asked to have some of the cards (probably not having any idea what the were). One guy, however, started to read the back of one and then asked if he could have some more to give to the guys working with him! How awesome! Something that Erica mentioned about an instance while we were walking back to our cars was really cool, too: we were handing out the cards to the people we passed as we walked along the sidewalk, and one guy reached for a card but missed it, so he had to do an extended reach before he actually got one. Erica later was like, "if he only knew what he was straining to reach, that would be so incredible." Indeed it would. That image stuck in my mind with extra meaning for the rest of the night. I saw this miscellaneous guy stretching with all his might toward something that he knew was worth having, yet not quite realizing that what he was truely reaching for was Christ. It's like the story of Paul in Acts where he goes to Athens and sees that they have an alter to "the unknown god." The people knew that there was "something more" that they needed and that deserved worship, but they didn't quite know what it was. That's the feeling I get when I think about that guy stretching to reach the card. Our vain attempts to reach God on our own. By His grace alone...

Mar 22, 2004

the best...

I've come to the conclusion that everyone should be an Elementary Education major because you get to make pinwheels and sundials in your college classes! So fun! But don't let that fool you into thinking that I don't do any "real" work... unlike most of my friends, I will be working through most of my (very short) spring break this week. Activity files, practicum hours, etc, etc, etc. Hopefully I can squeeze in a few beach hours... and hopefully the weather is nice... it's windy and a little chilly today. Okay, so this is a completely random and completely useless post, much to the contrary of its deceptive title. Anyway, maybe some worthwhile information will appear in days to come. Until then, pinwheels and sundials.

Mar 21, 2004

the way i see it...

"Always use good grammar. It's like wearing designer clothing. People may not like your style, but they will pay attention to the cut of your cloth."

"Never have a long conversation with anyone who says between you and I."

--(Tallulah) from Up from Jericho Tel by E.L. Konigsburg
i tried...

I tried to put up a link to Greg's blog, but it has not been working for me. After many attempts, I have decided to compromise with my computer and just put up a link in a post. So here you go... this is the link to my friend Greg's blog. Let's hope it works!

Mar 16, 2004

fascinated...

For the few who still read this, I thought I'd share some of the art that I am simply fascinated by that I have been able to admire here in St. Augustine. One of my favorite places here in town is a place called the Energy Lab. Go ahead, click on the link... they're pretty cool! I particularly like the work of Sean Farnum from that gallery. Also, their featured artist of the month is Andre'a Giovanni who seems to be on her way to photo-realist painting. Another artist that I have come to admire is Thomas Arvid, whose work can be seen here in St. Augustine at the Tripp Harrison Gallery, as well as here. Other artists from that same website that are also featured around town are Tripp Harrison, Simon Bull, and Cao Yong. Thomas Arvid is my personal favorite, though. I just can't get over how realistic his paintings are. Take a look at some of them... notice the reflections in the glass, the ripples and bubbles in the wine, and the awesome detail on the corks and wood. It loses a little of the impact when you only see it on the website, but in person the paintings are truely astonishing.

Anyway, that's all for now. Just felt like sharing one of my latest interests. Enjoy! (and comment if you're still reading my page! I feel so out of touch with everybody!)

Mar 12, 2004

the end...

Warmth has embraced me. Regretfully, the flowing cascade must stop. Drip, drip, drip... Drip, drip... Drip... Door swings. Sharp reality meets pink flesh with shivers and goose-bumps. Clammy feet on tile floor, raccoon eyes stare back from mirror. Upside-down and back agan... turban-head. Robe. Armload of the way things were. A final breath of solitude. And the exit from this blissful enclosure is inevitable. My shower is over.

Mar 3, 2004

the passion...

Genesis 3:14-15
God told the serpent: "Because you've done this, you're cursed, cursed beyond all cattle and wild animals, Cursed to slink on your belly and eat dirt all your life. I'm declaring war between you and the Woman, between your offspring and hers. He'll wound your head, you'll wound His heel."

Feb 26, 2004

"Even Then" by Nichole Nordeman

It's a fear that keeps me wide awake
In the middle of the night
When the expectations are too great
And the bar gets raised too high
So I do the best with what I've got
And hope that no one knows
That I strain to see how high I can
Try to stand on these toes
Until I'm measured, but You know better

So, thank You, Jesus
Even when You see us just as we are
Fragile and frail and so far
From who we want to be
So, thank You, Jesus
Even when the pieces are broken and small
Dreams shatter and scatter like the wind
Thank You, even then

So I put aside the masquerade
And admit that I am not okay
Which may not be the thing to say
But I'm not ashamed to need You more each day

We raise the standard, and try to reach You
But we'll never make it, and we don't need to...
blocking the light...

Larry spoke at Fusion tonight, and he gave this awesome example of how little things (little sins) in our lives can block our relationship with God when we let them stay in our lives. He said if you go outside on a sunny day, the great big sun up in the sky can be blocked out if you simply take a quarter from your pocket and hold it up in front of the sun. The sun is millions and millions of times bigger than the small, little quarter, yet that quarter can block the light of the sun if it is held between the sun and the viewer. Just like the quarter, "little" sins in our lives may seem insignificant in comparison to bigger things, yet they can just as easily block our access to God as bigger things. Something to think about.

Feb 20, 2004

new year's resolutions...
for andrew...


"This is your life" by Switchfoot

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes,
This is your life.
And today is all you've got now.
And today is all you've ever had.
Don't close your eyes.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything that you dreamed that it would be when the world was younger, and you had everything to lose?

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?

Feb 6, 2004

yet another week...

Yes, yet again it has been a week between posts. Sorry, life got in the way. But life has been good, I am happy to report. Christina and I have completed our first week of Quiet Times together. I'm really enjoying that. I'm glad she asked me about that because it sort of forced me to get back on track. God always knows just what I need. And we've been able to have some really good discussions together about what we're reading. Those discussions typically lead to others, which is good because I have a specific person who I can share important stuff with that I can count on to keep me accountable on a daily basis. And she's been such an encouragement to me, as well.

This week has been good. I don't specifically remember why, though. Nothing really stands out too much. I guess it was just a good week in general. My Thursday practicum stands out though. I walked in the door to my first grade class to find a substitute in place of the regular classroom teacher. The thought that immediately ran through my head was "I hate substitutes." No offense to them as people, but substitutes typically have NO IDEA what they're doing in the classroom. And this one was like a hundred years old to top it off. "Well, grin and bear it," I thought. I went in and introduced myself, and a look of sheer joy came over her face. She walked me to the desk where she proceeded to hand me the notes the teacher had jotted down for her. "This is what they're doing today," she said to me as she handed over the two little white slips of paper. "They have to go at the right time for lunch... can't be early or the other teachers will get mad," she said to me. She obviously was unaware I would only be there for a few hours. "I'm just here for the morning," I informed her. With a simple agreement, she stepped away, and it became clear to me that I was to take over. A quick surge of panic zipped through me for a split second. Then it was over. "I can do this," I reassured myself. I was comforted by the fact that I had observed the class before to know how they do things. After examining in detail the contents of the hand-scrawled schedule and realizing that absolutely nothing had been accomplished in the time before I entered the room, I assumed my position as "teacher." We went through the usual procedures of the morning calendar and the reading chart; we did multiple pages in the reading workbook, followed by several pages in the math workbook. I was quite encouraged and put at ease when the co-teacher entered the room (from working with a few kids on speech): she realized what page we were on in the reading workbook and said, "oh! you've gotten quite a lot accomplished! that's great!" "I told you it would be fine," I said to myself. Half-way through the math pages, I had to leave because my time was up. We had gotten a lot accomplished, though, and no one had any traumatic "substitute-day-breakdowns!" (For those who don't know, having a substitute is a very traumatic and disturbing experience for some young elementary school kids! No joke.) I informed the "real" sub where I left off and turned the class back over to her. The morning had gone very well, I thought. "She has no idea what she's doing," I reasserted as I closed the door behind myself.

Like I said, nothing else about my week particularly stands out. But tonight I'm going on the "First Friday Art Walk" which I'm quite excited about. After that, I think I'm going to a cookout at Larry's house, which should be fun. Tomorrow night is The Edge, and Watermark is going to be in concert. That's all my fun and exciting news. Maybe there will be more by the end of the weekend! Peace out!

Jan 30, 2004

ages...

Monday feels like ages ago! This has been such a great week! So many things have gone well. Hmmm.... where to begin? Well, first off, Christina decided to start doing a time of daily Bible reading for Lent (which is still some time off) and came to me for some guidance and suggestions. I was completely flattered and humbled that she came to me for something so important. I felt a little... umm... well, hypocritical telling her what she should do, though, since my daily devotions have been less than consistant lately. I told her I would think it over and see what suggestions I came up with for her. Today we went to The Wonder of Truth (which is a fabulous Christian bookstore here in St. Augustine) and I found a book called The Quiet Time Companion. She and I both got a copy of it, and we're going to go through it together. It's actually a two-year book, so it'll last a while, which is cool. We're both pretty excited about it. And it will be a good source for me for some things that are coming up that I will need a few ideas for.

Secondly, Christina also came to me and said that there's a good possibility she may be staying in St. Augustine after she graduates in April, so she was asking if some of us girls would want to live off campus with her. So this week has been spent looking at houses, and there are several potential ones! At this point, we're pretty much planning on living off campus with or without her... but we really hope she stays. So hopefully in the near future there will be some definite news about a house. Stay tuned!

That's all for now. Going to "Potbelly's" to watch a movie... there's safety in numbers, that's what I always say!

Jan 26, 2004

SUPER!!!!

I had such an incredibly awesome day today! I just got finished writing two long e-mails about it, so I can't really afford the time to write about it again here, but maybe I'll post details in a day or so. The basics though are that God is doing awesome things in my life. It's absolutely incredible.

Today I'm thankful for...
-Christina
-ladies' Bible study
-journaling
-God's Word to us
-God's provisions for us
-God's perfect timing!
-the impact people have on other people
-the fact that God chooses to use us!

Jan 22, 2004

feeling used, but in a good way...

I went through a time last year when I really felt like I wasn't being used by God in any significant way. I was a little torn between churches, so I wasn't really plugged into a specific ministry. On top of that, I really wasn't building personal relationships to the degree that I should have. This year I feel like that has all turned around completely. I'm plugged in at Anastasia, especially in Fusion, and I love it. People talk about how much they appreciate me/us making such sacrifices to lead Fusion, but to me it's no sacrifice at all. It's what I enjoy doing for the sake of God's ministry. Secondly, I feel like God has blessed and provided me with so many meaningful friendships this year. I don't just feel like I've made a lot of new friends this year (although I do feel that way); I feel like the friendships that have emerged have been so important to my spiritual development. Off the top of my head, I can think of at least four friends that I have made this year that are Christians who are incredibly encouraging to me. I know all of us are glad we were able to meet one another because we have all become so important in each others' lives. In addition, I have had the opportunity this year to become friends and acquaintances with several people who are not Christians. I don't know exactly how God is using me in those relationships, but I'm certain He's doing something, whether I can see it or not. Anyway, it's a good feeling to know that God is working in and through me. I'm quite encouraged.

Jan 21, 2004

May the horse be with you!!

-random Relient K quote of the day!

Jan 19, 2004

good day...

Today has been surprisingly good, despite the fact that it's a Monday and I had FIVE classes. My middle class of the day is Applied Linguistics, which I am totally loving. I'm one of those weird people who actually enjoys grammar, and I'm fascinated by language, so this class is right up my alley. It also has me thinking again about what I want to do when I graduate. I'm studying to be an elementary teacher, but I'm not sure if that's really my ultimate goal, or just an intermediate goal. Since I started this class, I have also started thinking about the possibility of doing something in speech pathology or speech therapy or something like that. I'm not totally sure what those careers actually entail, but I'm looking into it.

Not too much else to say today. I'm going to IV's first meeting of the semester in just a few minutes, so hopefully it will be great. I'm looking forward to it.

~have a lovely evening!~
glad it happened anyway...

Holding you, I held everything. For a moment, wasn't I a king? If I'd only known how this king would fall, now who's to say that i'd have changed it all. I'm glad i didn't know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. For our lives are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain, but i'd of had to miss the dance.

-from Rob's away message
Here's a quote from a new blog I started reading. I'm linking to him on the side of the page, also. Give it a look sometime.

God accepts us in who we are and where we are at in our lives. This does not mean he does not want us to change... but he invites us to sit down at his table no matter if we are a pope or a prostitute. This means we too must also sit down with people as Christ did. Because in God's eyes, we are all broken but it will never stop him from loving us.