here...
So, here I sit in the library, waiting for my group to show up for our group meeting. One of the four of us already wasn't able to come, but I am highly doubting if the others show up either. The guy wasn't in class yesterday, so the last time we even saw him was last Friday, so I can't say I could blame him if he forgets. The girl works till 8:00, so I also would not be surprised if she forgets. So that leaves me. The one who always shows up for group meetings and waits and waits when the other members forget to come. This is at least the fourth time this has happened, but thankfully not with the same group. I would say I'm thoroughly annoyed, but I really am not in the mood for a meeting anyway, so I can't say that I would be completely crushed if I just had to go home. Besides, I drove here rather than walking anyway, so it's not like I would be expending much extra energy. It has been 15 minutes... can I leave yet? I guess I'll give it another five. Or at least time enough to finish this post. Wait... the guy's here now. I guess I have to at least talk it over for a minute. It still doesn't look like I'll be here long.
Feb 24, 2005
another survey...
1. What time is it: 1:58
2. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Megan Michelle Lee
3. Nicknames: Meg, Megs, Meggie, Meggie-moo... do "georgeous" and "baby" count?
4. Piercing: ear lobes only
5. What is the most recent movie you've seen in the theater: Fetch
6. Eye color: brown
7. Place of birth: Jacksonville, FL
8. Favorite foods: tough choice.... pasta, chocolate, cheese
9. Ever been to Africa? no
10. Ever been toilet papering: yes... long time ago
11. Love someone so much it made you cry: friends, yes
12: Been in a car accident: only "fender-benders"
13. Croutons or bacon bits: croutons... especially the ones made from croissants at the Bunnery
14. Favorite day of the week: Sunday
15. Favorite restaurants: Bunnery, Pizza Garden, Olive Garden (or any other Italian place)
16. Favorite flower: Orchid
17. Favorite sport to watch: eh...
18. Favorite drink: i have several... diet coke, cherry coke, sweet tea, water... depends on mood
20. Disney or Warner Brothers: eh, WB
21. Favorite fast food restaurant: also depends on mood... anything but McD's
22. What color is your bedroom carpet: off-white
23. How many times did you fail your driver's test: 0
24. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail: Stephanie Barnes
25. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card: i don't actually have one, but if i did, probably Target or maybe Old Navy
26. What do you do most often when you are bored: i haven't had enough time to be bored much lately, but sometimes i clean, sometimes i just sit in my room and do absolutely nothing, sometimes i write in my journal
31. Favorite TV shows: The OC, simply because it's the only one i actually watch
32. Last person you went to dinner with: hmm... i ATE dinner last with Rob at his house, but that's not GOING to dinner... we ate at the church with the senior adults on tuesday but that's not really GOING out either... i went out to Cici's on saturday with Rob and everybody who was working for the high school retreat, but i didn't eat so that doesn't really count either... last thursday Rob and I had Subway while driving, so i don't know if that counts either... i could keep listing things, but i'll stop now.
33. Ford or Chevy: chevy, for the sake of my parents
34. What are you listening to right now: country music in marci's office
35. What is your favorite color: green
36. Lake, ocean or river: ocean, i think... i like all forms of water
37. How many tattoos do you have: none
39. Which came first--chicken or the egg: chicken
41. If you could be any age in life or relive any age what would it be: hmm... maybe 25, but i think i like my life right now enough that i wouldn't change it
1. What time is it: 1:58
2. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Megan Michelle Lee
3. Nicknames: Meg, Megs, Meggie, Meggie-moo... do "georgeous" and "baby" count?
4. Piercing: ear lobes only
5. What is the most recent movie you've seen in the theater: Fetch
6. Eye color: brown
7. Place of birth: Jacksonville, FL
8. Favorite foods: tough choice.... pasta, chocolate, cheese
9. Ever been to Africa? no
10. Ever been toilet papering: yes... long time ago
11. Love someone so much it made you cry: friends, yes
12: Been in a car accident: only "fender-benders"
13. Croutons or bacon bits: croutons... especially the ones made from croissants at the Bunnery
14. Favorite day of the week: Sunday
15. Favorite restaurants: Bunnery, Pizza Garden, Olive Garden (or any other Italian place)
16. Favorite flower: Orchid
17. Favorite sport to watch: eh...
18. Favorite drink: i have several... diet coke, cherry coke, sweet tea, water... depends on mood
20. Disney or Warner Brothers: eh, WB
21. Favorite fast food restaurant: also depends on mood... anything but McD's
22. What color is your bedroom carpet: off-white
23. How many times did you fail your driver's test: 0
24. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail: Stephanie Barnes
25. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card: i don't actually have one, but if i did, probably Target or maybe Old Navy
26. What do you do most often when you are bored: i haven't had enough time to be bored much lately, but sometimes i clean, sometimes i just sit in my room and do absolutely nothing, sometimes i write in my journal
31. Favorite TV shows: The OC, simply because it's the only one i actually watch
32. Last person you went to dinner with: hmm... i ATE dinner last with Rob at his house, but that's not GOING to dinner... we ate at the church with the senior adults on tuesday but that's not really GOING out either... i went out to Cici's on saturday with Rob and everybody who was working for the high school retreat, but i didn't eat so that doesn't really count either... last thursday Rob and I had Subway while driving, so i don't know if that counts either... i could keep listing things, but i'll stop now.
33. Ford or Chevy: chevy, for the sake of my parents
34. What are you listening to right now: country music in marci's office
35. What is your favorite color: green
36. Lake, ocean or river: ocean, i think... i like all forms of water
37. How many tattoos do you have: none
39. Which came first--chicken or the egg: chicken
41. If you could be any age in life or relive any age what would it be: hmm... maybe 25, but i think i like my life right now enough that i wouldn't change it
Feb 15, 2005
in just two days...
In slightly more than 48 hours, Rob and I will be on our way to Melbourne for a David Crowder concert! I am so excited! Marcie in the office was asking me if we did anything for Valentines Day, so I was telling her of our in-leu-of-Valentines-Day event, so now I'm thinking all about it. I am currently trying to paruse the DCB website, but it is loading slowly today for some reason. But I do see that the new book/CD release is today. Very exciting. Prior to telling Marcie about David Crowder, I made my best attempt of explaining Emo-Rock to her. Her response was basically "Oh. Okay." That all stemmed from the Judge asking what we called "that hard stuff" us young people listen to. I told him I don't listen to the "hard stuff." He's a funny man.
Random thought:
So in my quiet time lately I've been reading in 2Kings. That's one of those books of the Bible that I read and when I get to the end of a passage I'm like "okay... what now?" First of all, it's hard for me to follow because of all the different nations and kings and all. I should use a Bible map; it would probably help. Then, once I figure out everything that's going on, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to learn from it. The questions provided in the quiet time book I use generally help, but sometimes I'm still a little fuzzy. All in all, I know it's still important for me to read these types of passages, but it's so much more enjoyable when I have a clear application. I'll be out of 2Kings soon enough though. I think I only have two days of it left. Anyway, just thinking about that.
Here's something else that's random. This is a little poster in the education office next to the computer I sit at.
The evils of ice cream stores.
Yeah, I can tell you what I would not be doing if it were 1915. (Of course, I guess women weren't doing much of anything else back then in the way of careers either.)
In slightly more than 48 hours, Rob and I will be on our way to Melbourne for a David Crowder concert! I am so excited! Marcie in the office was asking me if we did anything for Valentines Day, so I was telling her of our in-leu-of-Valentines-Day event, so now I'm thinking all about it. I am currently trying to paruse the DCB website, but it is loading slowly today for some reason. But I do see that the new book/CD release is today. Very exciting. Prior to telling Marcie about David Crowder, I made my best attempt of explaining Emo-Rock to her. Her response was basically "Oh. Okay." That all stemmed from the Judge asking what we called "that hard stuff" us young people listen to. I told him I don't listen to the "hard stuff." He's a funny man.
Random thought:
So in my quiet time lately I've been reading in 2Kings. That's one of those books of the Bible that I read and when I get to the end of a passage I'm like "okay... what now?" First of all, it's hard for me to follow because of all the different nations and kings and all. I should use a Bible map; it would probably help. Then, once I figure out everything that's going on, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to learn from it. The questions provided in the quiet time book I use generally help, but sometimes I'm still a little fuzzy. All in all, I know it's still important for me to read these types of passages, but it's so much more enjoyable when I have a clear application. I'll be out of 2Kings soon enough though. I think I only have two days of it left. Anyway, just thinking about that.
Here's something else that's random. This is a little poster in the education office next to the computer I sit at.
1915 Rules for Teachers:
1. You will not marry during the term of your contract.
2. You are not to keep company with men.
3. You must be home between the hours of 8pm and 6am unless attending a school function.
4. You may not loiter downtown in ice cream stores.
5. You may not travel beyond the city limits unless you have the permission of the chairman of the board.
6. You may not ride in a carriage or automobile with any man unless he is your father or brother.
7. You may not smoke cigarettes.
8. You may not dress in bright colors.
9. You may under no circumstances dye your hair.
10. You must wear at least two petticoats.
11. Your dress must not be any shorter than two inches above the ankle.
12. To keep the school room neat and clean, you must: sweep the floor at least once daily, scrub the floor at least once a week with hot, soapy water, clean the blackboards at least once a day, and start the fire at 7am so the room will be warm by 8am.
The evils of ice cream stores.
Yeah, I can tell you what I would not be doing if it were 1915. (Of course, I guess women weren't doing much of anything else back then in the way of careers either.)
Feb 14, 2005
a very happy v-day...
I have had just an absolutely fabulous day. I had a really good morning, for no reason whatsoever... just in a good mood I guess. Then, I had a wonderful lunch date. Then, I went to my practicum, and while my work there was cut a little short for the holiday festivities, I very much enjoyed watching two classes of kids dive into bags full of Valentines and more sugar than I think I've seen in the past six months! I'm talkin' cake, and cupcakes, and candies of all sorts, and those cookies you get at Wal-Mart with the frosting on top (my girls know which ones I'm talking about!), and anything else you can imagine that contains rediculously large amounts of sugar. Clever of the teachers, however, is that this all took place during the last hour of the school day, so the kids will be wired for their parents!
Anyway, I'm off to photography class. Got to take a quiz. Blah.
I have had just an absolutely fabulous day. I had a really good morning, for no reason whatsoever... just in a good mood I guess. Then, I had a wonderful lunch date. Then, I went to my practicum, and while my work there was cut a little short for the holiday festivities, I very much enjoyed watching two classes of kids dive into bags full of Valentines and more sugar than I think I've seen in the past six months! I'm talkin' cake, and cupcakes, and candies of all sorts, and those cookies you get at Wal-Mart with the frosting on top (my girls know which ones I'm talking about!), and anything else you can imagine that contains rediculously large amounts of sugar. Clever of the teachers, however, is that this all took place during the last hour of the school day, so the kids will be wired for their parents!
Anyway, I'm off to photography class. Got to take a quiz. Blah.
Feb 11, 2005
quotes...
"I lift my eyes up unto the mountains, where does my help come from? My help comes from You, Maker of heaven, creator of the earth. Oh how I need You, Lord! You are my only hope! You are my only prayer! So I will wait for You to come and rescue me, to come and give me life."
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear..." I John 4:18a (verse of the day)
"I lift my eyes up unto the mountains, where does my help come from? My help comes from You, Maker of heaven, creator of the earth. Oh how I need You, Lord! You are my only hope! You are my only prayer! So I will wait for You to come and rescue me, to come and give me life."
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear..." I John 4:18a (verse of the day)
Feb 10, 2005
mood...
So I'm in the mood for doing a random survey but don't have one to do and am too lazy to search for one, so I will make up my own as I go along, dividing my personal information into as many questions/answers as possible, at least till I get bored with it. So here it goes.
1. First name: Megan
2. Middle name: Michelle
3. Last name: Lee
4. Birthplace: Jacksonville, FL
5. Place where you grew up: same as above, specifically "the Westside"
6. Current residence: St. Augustine, FL (in beautiful historic downtown)
7. Place where you hope to live permanently: St. Augustine
8. Church affiliation: Southern Baptist, but with a slight dislike of all large denominational organizations (I'm complicated)
9. Church in which you were raised: Westside Baptist
10. Church in which you are a current member: Anastasia Baptist
11. Did you attend preschool? not officially, the WEEN program at WBC (a shout-out to Allie!)
12. Elementary School: Normandy Village Elementary
13. Middle School: Trinity Christian Academy
14. High School: same as above
15. Graduation year: 2002
16. Favorite grade in HS: 11th
17. Hardest grade in HS: 10th
18. Best decision you made during HS: to take dual-enrollment classes
19. College: Flagler
20. Currently attending? yes
21. Major: Elementary Education
22. Minor: Fine Arts (but that's a bit of a story)
23. Graduation date: Dec. 2005
24. Living situation: with three fabulous room-mates (origionally 4) in the 3-bedroom first floor of a house on Oviedo Street. I get the single room. (new room-mates to be added soon)
25. Biggest peev about living with roomies: feeling like I'm the only one who ever cleans. people using my dishes/pans and leaving them dirty for days on end.
26. Favorite thing about living with roomies: they are awesome, godly people who offer constant love, support, and encouragement.
27. Favorite thing in your room: photos (currently, the ones of Rob... they humor me!)
28. Favorite color: green
29. Favorite food: cheese
30. Favorite dessert: all kinds :)
31. Favorite article of clothing: jeans
32. Favorite casual shoes: brown flops
33. Favorite dress shoes: black pointy ones
34. Best friend: Allison
35. In love? yes
36. With who? Rob (I know that comes as a huge shock)
37. Favorite blog: Niki's "lonliness"
38. Black or Blue ink: blue
39. Pen or Pencil: depends on mood
40. Favorite book: And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie
41. Favorite book of the Bible: James
42. Favorite scripture: Romans 8:38-39
43. Favorite Bible story: woman who touches the hem of Jesus' garment
44. Most often ordered beverage: water
45. Most appreciated office-type invention: the three-hole punch
46. Favorite hobby: photography, singing
47. Favorite people to sing with: Rob; Allison; Devon; Mel (in a group); Krissy
48. Favorite number(s) to exaggerate by: 12, 87, 8,000, 87,000
49. Favorite time in life: right now.
50. Favorite number to end a survey on: 50
So I'm in the mood for doing a random survey but don't have one to do and am too lazy to search for one, so I will make up my own as I go along, dividing my personal information into as many questions/answers as possible, at least till I get bored with it. So here it goes.
1. First name: Megan
2. Middle name: Michelle
3. Last name: Lee
4. Birthplace: Jacksonville, FL
5. Place where you grew up: same as above, specifically "the Westside"
6. Current residence: St. Augustine, FL (in beautiful historic downtown)
7. Place where you hope to live permanently: St. Augustine
8. Church affiliation: Southern Baptist, but with a slight dislike of all large denominational organizations (I'm complicated)
9. Church in which you were raised: Westside Baptist
10. Church in which you are a current member: Anastasia Baptist
11. Did you attend preschool? not officially, the WEEN program at WBC (a shout-out to Allie!)
12. Elementary School: Normandy Village Elementary
13. Middle School: Trinity Christian Academy
14. High School: same as above
15. Graduation year: 2002
16. Favorite grade in HS: 11th
17. Hardest grade in HS: 10th
18. Best decision you made during HS: to take dual-enrollment classes
19. College: Flagler
20. Currently attending? yes
21. Major: Elementary Education
22. Minor: Fine Arts (but that's a bit of a story)
23. Graduation date: Dec. 2005
24. Living situation: with three fabulous room-mates (origionally 4) in the 3-bedroom first floor of a house on Oviedo Street. I get the single room. (new room-mates to be added soon)
25. Biggest peev about living with roomies: feeling like I'm the only one who ever cleans. people using my dishes/pans and leaving them dirty for days on end.
26. Favorite thing about living with roomies: they are awesome, godly people who offer constant love, support, and encouragement.
27. Favorite thing in your room: photos (currently, the ones of Rob... they humor me!)
28. Favorite color: green
29. Favorite food: cheese
30. Favorite dessert: all kinds :)
31. Favorite article of clothing: jeans
32. Favorite casual shoes: brown flops
33. Favorite dress shoes: black pointy ones
34. Best friend: Allison
35. In love? yes
36. With who? Rob (I know that comes as a huge shock)
37. Favorite blog: Niki's "lonliness"
38. Black or Blue ink: blue
39. Pen or Pencil: depends on mood
40. Favorite book: And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie
41. Favorite book of the Bible: James
42. Favorite scripture: Romans 8:38-39
43. Favorite Bible story: woman who touches the hem of Jesus' garment
44. Most often ordered beverage: water
45. Most appreciated office-type invention: the three-hole punch
46. Favorite hobby: photography, singing
47. Favorite people to sing with: Rob; Allison; Devon; Mel (in a group); Krissy
48. Favorite number(s) to exaggerate by: 12, 87, 8,000, 87,000
49. Favorite time in life: right now.
50. Favorite number to end a survey on: 50
who am i to complain...
Suddenly, my Quiet Time seems much less complicated. This is apperantly what some Catholics do as their daily time with God. As the post so clearly demonstrates, it seems very, very complicated.
Speaking of Quiet Time and Catholics, while I am not Catholic myself, I have chosen to participate in Lent by setting aside a specific time each day for my Quiet Time. Granted, this is not something that I want to do just for Lent, but I figured this was a good time to get myself back on track. I also intend to try to go to bed at a reasonable hour for the next 40 (well, 39 now) days. I did give the stipulation, however, that Wednesdays are excluded, mostly because of Fusion. During Lent, you are "allowed" to take Sundays off, but I don't really plan to. Like I said, Wednesdays are my off nights for going to bed early, and I think Saturdays will be the biggest problem as far as my quiet time goes. I didn't really do Saturdays before, so I haven't yet decided what I plan to do now.
Nothing more for now. But I have two hours left at work, so you never know what may happen.
Suddenly, my Quiet Time seems much less complicated. This is apperantly what some Catholics do as their daily time with God. As the post so clearly demonstrates, it seems very, very complicated.
Speaking of Quiet Time and Catholics, while I am not Catholic myself, I have chosen to participate in Lent by setting aside a specific time each day for my Quiet Time. Granted, this is not something that I want to do just for Lent, but I figured this was a good time to get myself back on track. I also intend to try to go to bed at a reasonable hour for the next 40 (well, 39 now) days. I did give the stipulation, however, that Wednesdays are excluded, mostly because of Fusion. During Lent, you are "allowed" to take Sundays off, but I don't really plan to. Like I said, Wednesdays are my off nights for going to bed early, and I think Saturdays will be the biggest problem as far as my quiet time goes. I didn't really do Saturdays before, so I haven't yet decided what I plan to do now.
Nothing more for now. But I have two hours left at work, so you never know what may happen.
he loves me, he loves me not...
He loves me. That's such wonderful news!
(Girls: remember that terrible thing we used to do with poor, innocent flowers when we were little? What's up with that? Who decided that dismembering a beautiful little piece of God's creation would tell our love-fortunes? Oh to be six again! But twenty-one isn't half bad either!)
He loves me. That's such wonderful news!
(Girls: remember that terrible thing we used to do with poor, innocent flowers when we were little? What's up with that? Who decided that dismembering a beautiful little piece of God's creation would tell our love-fortunes? Oh to be six again! But twenty-one isn't half bad either!)
Feb 8, 2005
diminished mental capacity...
I was sitting in class today (or I think it was in class) and I thought of a topic on which I would post while I was at work today. But of course, as you may have assumed by now, I cannot remember what in the world I was going to write about.
wait....
I REMEMBER!
Fears. I was going to write about fears. I was in my Introduction to Exceptionality class, where we study various types of impairments, whether mental, physical, emotional, et cetera, and I realized (not for the first time) that one of the scariest things I could imagine happening is being pregnant and being told my child would be born with a disability (of any kind). I guess that's just because everybody has these dreams and expectations of what their child will be like, and you never really consider the possibility that your child won't be perfect. Scary. I fear it in the sense that all females fear being violently raped: you don't generally think about it, nor do you actually think there is a great possibility of it happening, yet when the idea is entertained, it is very scary. That analogy leads me to a third fear: becoming pregnant from a rape. I can only imagine that that would be one of the hardest things in the world to deal with. What would you do? By no means would I ever consider abortion to be an option, but what about adoption? For me, I think it would be wrong to give up the baby for adoption because I would be perfectly capable of giving the child a decent home. Yes, it would be incredibly hard, at least for a period of time, to have a baby who constantly reminded me of the horrible event that led to her existence, but I don't believe that is reasonable cause for me to give her up and risk her being shuffled along through "the system" for years to come, with the possible final outcome of being stuck in a bad home. No. I would definitely have to keep her no matter what. I just can't imagine.... So scary.
Okay, so I apologize for the randomness of this post. And for the "weirdness" level. Just following my train of thought, random as it may be.
I was sitting in class today (or I think it was in class) and I thought of a topic on which I would post while I was at work today. But of course, as you may have assumed by now, I cannot remember what in the world I was going to write about.
wait....
I REMEMBER!
Fears. I was going to write about fears. I was in my Introduction to Exceptionality class, where we study various types of impairments, whether mental, physical, emotional, et cetera, and I realized (not for the first time) that one of the scariest things I could imagine happening is being pregnant and being told my child would be born with a disability (of any kind). I guess that's just because everybody has these dreams and expectations of what their child will be like, and you never really consider the possibility that your child won't be perfect. Scary. I fear it in the sense that all females fear being violently raped: you don't generally think about it, nor do you actually think there is a great possibility of it happening, yet when the idea is entertained, it is very scary. That analogy leads me to a third fear: becoming pregnant from a rape. I can only imagine that that would be one of the hardest things in the world to deal with. What would you do? By no means would I ever consider abortion to be an option, but what about adoption? For me, I think it would be wrong to give up the baby for adoption because I would be perfectly capable of giving the child a decent home. Yes, it would be incredibly hard, at least for a period of time, to have a baby who constantly reminded me of the horrible event that led to her existence, but I don't believe that is reasonable cause for me to give her up and risk her being shuffled along through "the system" for years to come, with the possible final outcome of being stuck in a bad home. No. I would definitely have to keep her no matter what. I just can't imagine.... So scary.
Okay, so I apologize for the randomness of this post. And for the "weirdness" level. Just following my train of thought, random as it may be.
wish list addition...
I want a subscription to American Photo magazine. I've looked at them before, but yesterday I picked up the most recent issue in the photo lab and brought it home with me to read. SO good! Being an art-focused magazine, there are some rather risque articles, but that's to be expected.
Speaking of photography, yesterday was our first presentation day of the semester. It went well. I had a few compliments from classmates, which is always encouraging, and had some good comments from the instructor. And something that might even be better than both of those is that I was pleased with my photos even when they were up on the wall next to everyone else's. As intimidating as it can be, I'm glad we do public critique in that class because it's cool when you start noticing specific things that could be improved about photos and then the professor points out the exact same things. That's when you know you are developing a "good eye," as they call it. So overall, yesterday was a good critique day. I love photography.
I want a subscription to American Photo magazine. I've looked at them before, but yesterday I picked up the most recent issue in the photo lab and brought it home with me to read. SO good! Being an art-focused magazine, there are some rather risque articles, but that's to be expected.
Speaking of photography, yesterday was our first presentation day of the semester. It went well. I had a few compliments from classmates, which is always encouraging, and had some good comments from the instructor. And something that might even be better than both of those is that I was pleased with my photos even when they were up on the wall next to everyone else's. As intimidating as it can be, I'm glad we do public critique in that class because it's cool when you start noticing specific things that could be improved about photos and then the professor points out the exact same things. That's when you know you are developing a "good eye," as they call it. So overall, yesterday was a good critique day. I love photography.
Feb 3, 2005
yet a third...
I have obviously not had much actual work to do today at my work-study job. It's been nice. Not only have I been able to catch up on emails, posting, and internet reading, I also was able to get some work done for my portfolio so that I'm no longer behind. Anyway, here's what I was really going to write about...
I just had the brief opportunity to interpret for one of the Deaf teachers here at the school. (For those who don't know, we have Deaf teachers here who teach the ASL courses.) She came into the office to ask a question, in which case she would normally have to find a piece of paper and write the question, wait for the person to read the question and write a response, etc. But instead of all that nonsense, I simply told her I sign, and we conversed in a far less restrictive manner. What's my point? Well, it's more of a connection than a point. Already today I had been thinking of something which this reminded me of. To sum it up nicely (before I explain in further detail), there are no coincidences. Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for me. Earlier I was thinking a little about what it is that I want to do with my life, which is a scary and intimidating topic most of the time. (One of the topics that gets vetoed from conversation frequently at the house because it stresses everyone out!) Anyway, today I was thinking: "I'm going to graduate with a teaching degree, but what if I don't teach? Will it have been a waste?" (In all honesty, I wasn't thinking quite that concretely about it... it was more of a vague thought.) My thoughts about that question brought me back to things that God had shown me a while back. I first came to Flagler/St.Augustine for the sole reason that I wanted to major in Deaf Education, and Flagler was the place to do that. I took all my sign language courses, but before taking most of my actual Deaf Ed courses decided that it was not the field for me, despite my love for the language. I switched majors to Elementary Ed, and was quite pleased with my decision for some time. I had determined that God wanted me to teach and He knew the only way to get me into the profession was to sneak me in by means of Deaf Ed. Otherwise, I would have gone kicking and screaming the whole way. While this is still a possible explanation, another thought has come up, as well. My new theory is that the profession wasn't where God needed to get me, He just needed to get me to St. Augustine. (For the record, I believe I will teach, but I'm not sure how long.) Regardless of anything else, I am certain that St. Augustine is exactly where God wants me to be. I have been here 2 and a half years now and have never questioned if it was right or not; I have always been confident of that. Everything here is a perfect fit for me: atmosphere, friends, church/ministries, current relationship, school atmosphere, housing situation, EVERYTHING. I could not imagine being happier or more content in another place. What a great feeling! To tie this all back in to the origional story, I just was thinking that I believe that no step along the way was a waste. I am very glad to know sign language, and I know God will use it in specific ways throughout my life, even if they are small ways like being able to help someone else communicate easier. As for being an Education major who may not remain in education, that's okay too. I will have gotten a Bachelor's Degree, which--let's be honest--is really the only thing most employers care about, and even if I don't "use" my degree, I have learned lots of interesting stuff about the ways people learn... one of those things I am interested in anyway. So that's my point, or rather my lengthy connection of ideas, for today. I'm satisfied.
I have obviously not had much actual work to do today at my work-study job. It's been nice. Not only have I been able to catch up on emails, posting, and internet reading, I also was able to get some work done for my portfolio so that I'm no longer behind. Anyway, here's what I was really going to write about...
I just had the brief opportunity to interpret for one of the Deaf teachers here at the school. (For those who don't know, we have Deaf teachers here who teach the ASL courses.) She came into the office to ask a question, in which case she would normally have to find a piece of paper and write the question, wait for the person to read the question and write a response, etc. But instead of all that nonsense, I simply told her I sign, and we conversed in a far less restrictive manner. What's my point? Well, it's more of a connection than a point. Already today I had been thinking of something which this reminded me of. To sum it up nicely (before I explain in further detail), there are no coincidences. Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for me. Earlier I was thinking a little about what it is that I want to do with my life, which is a scary and intimidating topic most of the time. (One of the topics that gets vetoed from conversation frequently at the house because it stresses everyone out!) Anyway, today I was thinking: "I'm going to graduate with a teaching degree, but what if I don't teach? Will it have been a waste?" (In all honesty, I wasn't thinking quite that concretely about it... it was more of a vague thought.) My thoughts about that question brought me back to things that God had shown me a while back. I first came to Flagler/St.Augustine for the sole reason that I wanted to major in Deaf Education, and Flagler was the place to do that. I took all my sign language courses, but before taking most of my actual Deaf Ed courses decided that it was not the field for me, despite my love for the language. I switched majors to Elementary Ed, and was quite pleased with my decision for some time. I had determined that God wanted me to teach and He knew the only way to get me into the profession was to sneak me in by means of Deaf Ed. Otherwise, I would have gone kicking and screaming the whole way. While this is still a possible explanation, another thought has come up, as well. My new theory is that the profession wasn't where God needed to get me, He just needed to get me to St. Augustine. (For the record, I believe I will teach, but I'm not sure how long.) Regardless of anything else, I am certain that St. Augustine is exactly where God wants me to be. I have been here 2 and a half years now and have never questioned if it was right or not; I have always been confident of that. Everything here is a perfect fit for me: atmosphere, friends, church/ministries, current relationship, school atmosphere, housing situation, EVERYTHING. I could not imagine being happier or more content in another place. What a great feeling! To tie this all back in to the origional story, I just was thinking that I believe that no step along the way was a waste. I am very glad to know sign language, and I know God will use it in specific ways throughout my life, even if they are small ways like being able to help someone else communicate easier. As for being an Education major who may not remain in education, that's okay too. I will have gotten a Bachelor's Degree, which--let's be honest--is really the only thing most employers care about, and even if I don't "use" my degree, I have learned lots of interesting stuff about the ways people learn... one of those things I am interested in anyway. So that's my point, or rather my lengthy connection of ideas, for today. I'm satisfied.
if...
If I were a really anal person... okay, if I were really anal in a mean sort of way... this is the kind of blog I would have. It's called "Things I hate about my flatmate." (They even have a mouse problem, which the girls and I can relate to right now.) But don't take that the wrong way... I love my girls and would never write nasty things like that about them.
Speaking of room mates, Christina got into the school she applied to, so that's really exciting. The not so exciting part, however, is that our lease is up next month, so when we re-sign, only three of the origional five of us will be re-signing. We need to get another room mate. We've talked about that idea, but that's really as far as we've gotten. No names have come up and no action has been taken as to actually finding someone. But we really do need to. More on that in days to come.
If I were a really anal person... okay, if I were really anal in a mean sort of way... this is the kind of blog I would have. It's called "Things I hate about my flatmate." (They even have a mouse problem, which the girls and I can relate to right now.) But don't take that the wrong way... I love my girls and would never write nasty things like that about them.
Speaking of room mates, Christina got into the school she applied to, so that's really exciting. The not so exciting part, however, is that our lease is up next month, so when we re-sign, only three of the origional five of us will be re-signing. We need to get another room mate. We've talked about that idea, but that's really as far as we've gotten. No names have come up and no action has been taken as to actually finding someone. But we really do need to. More on that in days to come.
my beef...
(for you, k-dogg)
I'm a listener. That's what I do. More so, that's who I am. Throughout my life as a listener, I have come to realize that the most important part of it is simply the listening... NOT the responding. People come to you with problems because they need someone to talk to, someone who will listen to them, someone who will not judge them. They do not necessarily need your advice. Especially your uneducated, unconsidered advice. A good listener is willing to say, "I don't know what to tell you." Sometimes that's the best thing you can say because all they needed to do was to speak their heart. If they want your advice, or you feel it would be appropriate for you to give it, be sure you have seriously considered and prayed about what you are going to say to them. If it is a serious situation, you do not want to be hasty in your advice-giving. You could really mess them up. Be willing to take the time necessary to make sure that the advice you are giving is the best advice... not merely good advice.
On another, unrelated note, I have been overwhelmed this week with the concept of Christ's forgiveness, and how it is our responsibility to show that to others (you know, forgive as Christ has forgiven you). How fake it is of us to say we love God and to enjoy His forgiveness, yet when a situation comes up that requires us to forgive someone else, we withhold forgiveness from them. I have encountered and observed more than one situation recently where this principle applies (whether it was properly applied or not). I am amazed daily at the unconditional love that Christ has for me, and He has just been revealing to me this week that my response to that is to be like Him.
Determine to live like Christ.
(for you, k-dogg)
I'm a listener. That's what I do. More so, that's who I am. Throughout my life as a listener, I have come to realize that the most important part of it is simply the listening... NOT the responding. People come to you with problems because they need someone to talk to, someone who will listen to them, someone who will not judge them. They do not necessarily need your advice. Especially your uneducated, unconsidered advice. A good listener is willing to say, "I don't know what to tell you." Sometimes that's the best thing you can say because all they needed to do was to speak their heart. If they want your advice, or you feel it would be appropriate for you to give it, be sure you have seriously considered and prayed about what you are going to say to them. If it is a serious situation, you do not want to be hasty in your advice-giving. You could really mess them up. Be willing to take the time necessary to make sure that the advice you are giving is the best advice... not merely good advice.
On another, unrelated note, I have been overwhelmed this week with the concept of Christ's forgiveness, and how it is our responsibility to show that to others (you know, forgive as Christ has forgiven you). How fake it is of us to say we love God and to enjoy His forgiveness, yet when a situation comes up that requires us to forgive someone else, we withhold forgiveness from them. I have encountered and observed more than one situation recently where this principle applies (whether it was properly applied or not). I am amazed daily at the unconditional love that Christ has for me, and He has just been revealing to me this week that my response to that is to be like Him.
Determine to live like Christ.
Jan 27, 2005
content...
Today was a good day. I went to my 9:30 class, which went as normal. When I walked home, there was a car in the driveway which Krissy was getting into. It was Jayce and Chris. They were headed to Chick-Fil-A and invited me to come along, so I did. So the four of us had a wonderful time dining on the finest in fast-food chicken. (I really do like CFA a lot.) I came home, did some stuff on the computer, and went to my 12:30 class, which also went as normal. I then came to work, which was a little busier than normal, but I am obviously having some down-time and posting now. Tonight is a Kappa Delta Pi meeting, at which Nena is speaking. Then it's probably some homework, and chillin' with the girls, especially since Rob is in Orlando.
I am looking forward to Ft.Lauderdale this weekend.
Today was a good day. I went to my 9:30 class, which went as normal. When I walked home, there was a car in the driveway which Krissy was getting into. It was Jayce and Chris. They were headed to Chick-Fil-A and invited me to come along, so I did. So the four of us had a wonderful time dining on the finest in fast-food chicken. (I really do like CFA a lot.) I came home, did some stuff on the computer, and went to my 12:30 class, which also went as normal. I then came to work, which was a little busier than normal, but I am obviously having some down-time and posting now. Tonight is a Kappa Delta Pi meeting, at which Nena is speaking. Then it's probably some homework, and chillin' with the girls, especially since Rob is in Orlando.
I am looking forward to Ft.Lauderdale this weekend.
Jan 25, 2005
first...
I found a picture from the first concert where I saw David Crowder! I'm going to try to post it, but I need to be on my computer and I'm at work right now. Hopefully I'll get that done later. That was a good day... fun times. Today's been a good day, as well. Work is dragging on a bit though. Another hour to go.
I found a picture from the first concert where I saw David Crowder! I'm going to try to post it, but I need to be on my computer and I'm at work right now. Hopefully I'll get that done later. That was a good day... fun times. Today's been a good day, as well. Work is dragging on a bit though. Another hour to go.
wish list...
I was just looking on the David Crowder Band website and I've come up with a wish list, in case you were wondering :)
1. Sunsets & Sushi (CD)
2. Praise Habit: Finding God in Sunsets & Sushi (book)
3. the green squirrel T-shirt
In addition, I want a upright bass, and want to learn to play it. Not that that's going to happen any time soon! Nor does it have anything to do with DCB. But I thought of it, so I shared it. But there is a connection technically... DCB and Charlie Hall were both at the Passion conference, and the guy in Charlie's band plays the bass. See, it wasn't totally random after all!
I was just looking on the David Crowder Band website and I've come up with a wish list, in case you were wondering :)
1. Sunsets & Sushi (CD)
2. Praise Habit: Finding God in Sunsets & Sushi (book)
3. the green squirrel T-shirt
In addition, I want a upright bass, and want to learn to play it. Not that that's going to happen any time soon! Nor does it have anything to do with DCB. But I thought of it, so I shared it. But there is a connection technically... DCB and Charlie Hall were both at the Passion conference, and the guy in Charlie's band plays the bass. See, it wasn't totally random after all!
thankful...
So here's something random that's on my mind this morning. It is so awesome how much God cares about me. He answers prayers that I don't even pray. There was something that had been on my mind off and on in recent days, and I basically thought to myself "I wish I could do something to change that, but I really can't, so I'll just leave it alone and not worry about it." Next thing I know, God's working in that area, making the changes that I wasn't capable of making. And I didn't even ask Him to. I was just going to accept that the situation was the way it was and move on with my life, but God knew it was something important to me, so He took over. How cool is that! And now that I think about it, everything I just said applies to a second situation, as well. It's cool when God moves like that --in situations that I have already been thinking about-- because it's very confirming that I'm moving in the right direction. It's like He's saying, "Yes, Megan, this is My will for you." God's so cool.
There are no coincidences!
So here's something random that's on my mind this morning. It is so awesome how much God cares about me. He answers prayers that I don't even pray. There was something that had been on my mind off and on in recent days, and I basically thought to myself "I wish I could do something to change that, but I really can't, so I'll just leave it alone and not worry about it." Next thing I know, God's working in that area, making the changes that I wasn't capable of making. And I didn't even ask Him to. I was just going to accept that the situation was the way it was and move on with my life, but God knew it was something important to me, so He took over. How cool is that! And now that I think about it, everything I just said applies to a second situation, as well. It's cool when God moves like that --in situations that I have already been thinking about-- because it's very confirming that I'm moving in the right direction. It's like He's saying, "Yes, Megan, this is My will for you." God's so cool.
There are no coincidences!
Jan 14, 2005
good...
Things are going very well for me currently, in case that was the question in your mind today. Rob and I are having loads of fun being together, as are my room mates and I. I'm glad to have the girls back in the house after the break. My first three days of school went well. I got all the classes I signed up for, and I was able to add my Photo II class, which is a wonderful thing. Everything at church is awesome, as always. Tonight I'm going out to dinner with Rob and his parents, then having the first Continuation meeting of the year. Tomorrow I get to help Rob pick out new furniture! I love any excuse to shop for house stuff. In the mean time (as in before dinner) I should go clean my room and put away my laundry and all that.
By the way, the Passion conference was incredible. The speakers were Louie Giglio, Beth Moore, and John Piper. The bands were David Crowder, Chris Tomlin, Charlie Hall, Matt Redman, and Shane & Shane. There were other speakers and bands for some of the sessions, but these were the main ones. Louie is my favorite speaker of all time. All three speakers were awesome though... very wise, knowledgable people. David Crowder was my favorite band performance wise (no surprise there), but I think I enjoyed Charlie Hall the most as worship leader. Both very awesome guys. Anyway, that's all for now. I'm sure I'll mention other little things about the conference as time goes by.
Things are going very well for me currently, in case that was the question in your mind today. Rob and I are having loads of fun being together, as are my room mates and I. I'm glad to have the girls back in the house after the break. My first three days of school went well. I got all the classes I signed up for, and I was able to add my Photo II class, which is a wonderful thing. Everything at church is awesome, as always. Tonight I'm going out to dinner with Rob and his parents, then having the first Continuation meeting of the year. Tomorrow I get to help Rob pick out new furniture! I love any excuse to shop for house stuff. In the mean time (as in before dinner) I should go clean my room and put away my laundry and all that.
By the way, the Passion conference was incredible. The speakers were Louie Giglio, Beth Moore, and John Piper. The bands were David Crowder, Chris Tomlin, Charlie Hall, Matt Redman, and Shane & Shane. There were other speakers and bands for some of the sessions, but these were the main ones. Louie is my favorite speaker of all time. All three speakers were awesome though... very wise, knowledgable people. David Crowder was my favorite band performance wise (no surprise there), but I think I enjoyed Charlie Hall the most as worship leader. Both very awesome guys. Anyway, that's all for now. I'm sure I'll mention other little things about the conference as time goes by.
Jan 10, 2005
stuffy...
My allergies started bothering me off and on sometime between Christmas and New Years. Since then, however, I think I caught a cold while on the Passion trip. Krissy, Rob, Mrs.Phyllis, and I are all sick. Hopefully it clears up soon for all of us. The worst part for me is that my nose constantly tingles, like when you have to sneeze, but no sneeze comes. I would say the congestion in my head is the worst part, but I'm relatively used to that because of my frequent allergies. My major events for the past two days have included taking cold medicine, eating soup, and many hours of sleeping. I actually did get some other things accomplished however. I went to church yesterday, picked up Erica at Jax airport, had leadership meeting last night, and watched a movie with Rob. (High Fidelity... pretty good) Today I woke up early, registered at school, bought books and a new hoodie, and went to Wal-Mart. I had been putting off going to Wal-Mart for a while now just because I hate being there with the crowds of people, but on Monday morning at 9:30 it was completely bearable. I was craving a donut, so I stopped in at Dunkin Donuts on the way home. I ate my donut, put away my groceries, and crawled in bed for several hours. That was basically my day. I look at it like this though: sleeping may help me start feeling better, I have nothing else to do anyway, and starting Wednesday I won't have the opportunity to take naps.
In other news, as I mentioned school starts on Wednesday. I can't say that I'm particularly excited, but I'm also not dreading it. I'm going to try to get into the Photo II class, but I'm not sure if that will happen or not. There was only one seat left when I checked it a week ago, so I may have to fight for it. Rob is speaking at Fusion this week, for which I am glad. I was asked to speak next week, but as of yet have no idea what I'll be speaking on. I thought about Hosea last night. We had mentioned it at church yesterday and it stuck with me. We'll see. I desperately need to get back to my daily reading. I'm in Chronicles right now, and there's some good stuff I might pull from there too. As for this week, I hope Rob and I both start to feel better, since he's speaking and consequently we'll be one person short for the worship team, leaving me and Devon and possibly Phil.
That's all for now. I'm done. But I will try to post soon about how awesome the Passion conference was. Later.
My allergies started bothering me off and on sometime between Christmas and New Years. Since then, however, I think I caught a cold while on the Passion trip. Krissy, Rob, Mrs.Phyllis, and I are all sick. Hopefully it clears up soon for all of us. The worst part for me is that my nose constantly tingles, like when you have to sneeze, but no sneeze comes. I would say the congestion in my head is the worst part, but I'm relatively used to that because of my frequent allergies. My major events for the past two days have included taking cold medicine, eating soup, and many hours of sleeping. I actually did get some other things accomplished however. I went to church yesterday, picked up Erica at Jax airport, had leadership meeting last night, and watched a movie with Rob. (High Fidelity... pretty good) Today I woke up early, registered at school, bought books and a new hoodie, and went to Wal-Mart. I had been putting off going to Wal-Mart for a while now just because I hate being there with the crowds of people, but on Monday morning at 9:30 it was completely bearable. I was craving a donut, so I stopped in at Dunkin Donuts on the way home. I ate my donut, put away my groceries, and crawled in bed for several hours. That was basically my day. I look at it like this though: sleeping may help me start feeling better, I have nothing else to do anyway, and starting Wednesday I won't have the opportunity to take naps.
In other news, as I mentioned school starts on Wednesday. I can't say that I'm particularly excited, but I'm also not dreading it. I'm going to try to get into the Photo II class, but I'm not sure if that will happen or not. There was only one seat left when I checked it a week ago, so I may have to fight for it. Rob is speaking at Fusion this week, for which I am glad. I was asked to speak next week, but as of yet have no idea what I'll be speaking on. I thought about Hosea last night. We had mentioned it at church yesterday and it stuck with me. We'll see. I desperately need to get back to my daily reading. I'm in Chronicles right now, and there's some good stuff I might pull from there too. As for this week, I hope Rob and I both start to feel better, since he's speaking and consequently we'll be one person short for the worship team, leaving me and Devon and possibly Phil.
That's all for now. I'm done. But I will try to post soon about how awesome the Passion conference was. Later.
